How to Help Myself
A couple of weeks ago, I began thinking to myself, “I’m ready to work again.” Then I thought, “I want to work again.” Once, I even…
Finding My Survival Story
I have learned first hand that everyone in the circle has two stories to tell: the sad, hard story of their son’s or daughter’s death and…
What to Remember
There are so many images that sometimes press themselves into my mind, pictures I do not want to see, moments in time I do not want to…
Singing in the Car with Camila
After Camila died, it took me some time to do certain things. I tossed through the sympathy cards. I wasn’t ready to be comforted, and I wasn’t ready to…
The Tack I Have Chosen to Take
After Camila died, I found a journal on her nightstand at home. I had come home after living with her in hospitals for ten months, so finding this felt…
Milestones in the Road
I got through the holidays, and now Camila’s birthday is coming up. As people in the circle say, I’m experiencing the “first year” markers. And they hurt.…
Fill Your Heart with Love
Everyone develops coping mechanisms, things they do to help them get through the days and the long hours of the night. When I began trying to…
Prepare for Success
When Camila’s cord blood transplant was only two weeks away, she came out of remission. We moved from Transplant back to Oncology, and there met a…
A Compassionate Friend 